tough

Life can sure throw some curve balls. I have always wanted a largesh family, have two of my own then adopt. K wants 6 kids of his own. I have been willing to have that many. Things change. We found out that I am a balanced carrier, this simply means two of my chromosomes are stuck together. Our chances of having another child with ds is a 10 to 15% chance, and almost 30 to 35% chance of miscarriage. The rest is split between a normal child and a child that is a balanced carrier. I do want to have more children and if I have one with Ds how much harder will it be with two? but I am not sure, I think I will be very worried about it for a while. We have at least six months before we think about trying for another and I am trying not to think about it yet, today has enough worries without adding more. I need to go home, till next time.